The process of getting here; writing my first blog and launching a website, has been quite a journey. If I’m honest, I think I’ve been in a season of waiting for at least the last 15 years. I frankly had no clue what or who I was waiting for, I just knew not to rush, and to allow myself to soak in the unknown. For someone who thrives in knowing and creating plans, that has been very uncomfortable.
A gift which arose in the waiting was an invitation to trust. Now to trust requires some degree of need or want, vulnerability, and a willingness to receive. Until this season, I was truly ignorant of my need, too busy thinking about everyone else to even know my want, too terrified to be that vulnerable, and too self-reliant to receive. I can say this now, being on the other side of waiting, but in the thick of it, I had no clue what was going on. I knew I was not perfect, that I had some twisted motives, and old patterns of thought and behavior that were decaying, and yet the pathway out, around, or through seemed elusive. It is only now in hindsight, that I can see more clearly what was happening inside me. I was being changed. Old patterns weren’t working anymore. It was time for something new.
This Blog is my journey of being made new. Daily. In the muck and mire of everyday life. It is not glamorous. It is real, raw, messy, uncomfortable, authentic, and true. I will tell my story as I live it, the good, the bad and the ugly. My hope is that as you read you will be blessed knowing you are not alone, and that you find yourself met, honored, and challenged in your everyday life, being transformed into the most real, true, unapologetic version of yourself.